hopeless crush part 2 (if you want to find it you need to stop looking for it)

*plays john mayer's tracks list*

ps : hello readers! (if there's any). before i begin, let me remind you. this entry will contain overflowing of so-called broken heart problems, which may annoy you at some point.

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its raining heavily outside, sipping hot coffee while listening to john mayer's songs. hmm. thinking of how's my life going, im just a jobless lad and i feel lifeless. i sleep late, wake up late, spend the whole time on internet and thats that. 

there he goes again. lingering around through my mind. hmm. im in an attempt to move on, so yeah. wish me luck people. i actually prepare simple tips for better move on which i can apply to myself. and here are the shits :- 

1) avoid listening to songs that can make you think of him. (safe and sound, distance, ect)

2) do not read broken heart quotes. i know you'll feel like, "oh how related". but please dont. it will not heal you, in fact, it will worsen your heartache because you may be over carried by it.

3) STOP STALKING HIM. i know what you've been doing lately. but stalking his twitter account for every single day is one of the barriers to move on.

4) avoid yourself to talk about him to your friends. no matter how hard it is, you have to try.

5) he will not text you, will not call you, so yeah, you gotta throw the thoughts away, because he never bothers to think about you.

6) find someone to replace him, no? lol. a big no no for this. i dont want to get attached to anyone anymore. attachment hurts.

7) dont confuse yourself with the imaginary thoughts. i tell you, if he cares, if he likes you, he will find you, and do whatever things to get you. 

hope those tips will help me in any ways. im going to be better in time. trust me, ayu. you can do it. its not like its the first time you're facing a situation like this. :)

its funny sometimes to think how i get this broken heart from someone that i dont even date. LOL.

irony is, that all my weak moments made me stronger. i hope. in shaa Allah.

:)

hopeless crush part 1

hello everybody. is anybody there? i havent blogged for uncountable days, and now all of sudden the mood of blogging come to me again. ahh, how i missed blogging. since i havent blogged for almost a year now, there are too many stuffs happened, now it seems ridiculous to write about everything. lol. of course.

but i have something i need to highlight, something that i want to let everyone know, something that calls me to come here again.

if i tell you this, i bet you'll respond like this, "haa, there you go again, ayu". have a clue yet? no? lol. okay. it has something to do with a 'crush thang'. lol. err okay, no lol. this is supposed to be the sad story of me. tsk.

okay, there is this guy, was actually my coursemate. i never expect to fall for him, everr. one of my friend liked him, so i was like, "what did you ever see in him?" since i couldnt find any attractive sides of him, umm BEFORE.

i dont know when it started, but since 'that' day, everytime we bumped into each other, i felt my heart thumping real fast. i felt really nervous to the extent that i couldnt even look at his face. lol. yeahh. hahaaa. "-.-

im sorry readers, now that after a while i havent posted anything here, you have to read all this so-called love issue.

hmmm. that's all for today's post. will continue again in the next post perhaps with the same issue? oh dear.



p/s : pardon my poor grammar. i havent been actively writing lately. 

can't be fooled

you can't fool me, brother. i've met a bunch of pricks like you, i'm so through it. if you want to fool a girl, try to find somebody else cus' it is not working on me. indeed, it is not working at all. so, please do not reckon me to buy all of your sweet words. capish? :)

p/s : this entry is not pointed to my ex. 

Love,

Ayu Othman

Deactivate

What's crackalackin', people?

i don't have much to say here, just want to inform my friends that

"i am deactivating my Facebook account"

so, if you find yourself searching for my profile but you couldn't find it, don't worry. i'm not unfriend, blocking you or what. i just need to keep myself away from Facebook for awhile. that's the only way to forbid myself from stalking 'his' profile. :(

it has been a habit already, and i have to get rid it or at least diminish it. it hurts me seeing his profile while both of us are nothing than just 'friends on facebook'.

move on already, ayu. seriously.

(how i wish 'moving on' is as easy as its sound)

:(

Love,

Ayu Othman

it's monday and i'm tensed

hello cruel world, what's up heartless people?

holy shit, it's Monday? scratch that, it does not mean anything to me. i am on my holiday, so who gives a damn about Monday. it is already 7:45am and i haven't slept yet since last night. yes, i am the champion!

i am tensed and i am having a bad skin situation right now. pimples seem to be added in numbers. can i blame damned Safi's facial foam for that? haihh. i was forced to buy that brand since i was too broke to buy Bio-Essence as it is my permanent facial form. tanaka white (Bio-Essence products) will cost me rm20 and Safi only Safi's only cost me like rm6 something? but look what happened now. :(

luckily, yesterday i have bought a new facial foam for my skin and i hope it will work out well.

i feel positive about Eucerin product, so do not failed me okay Euuuu (what a name) ''--

this product alone has cost me rm32 (after 15% less), tapi nasib baik my sister who is very kind to pay it for me. hehehe.

i decided to stop using this even though this product had help me alot at diminishing my pimples but it kinda left me a black scars on my skin. itu yang tanak tuw.

binatang nie, haishhh. malas nak cakap.

Love,

Ayu Othman