You

he asked, "do you still love me?"

i looked down, hesitant to reply

i, myself did not know the answer

the confusion stroke to my head

i wouldnt say i hate him

his betrayal wouldn't give me a hatred towards him, ever

how could i hate somebody that i ever loved

ever loved, ayu?

ever 'loved' you said?

hmm.

i looked into his eyes, i smiled

that face, how could i hate, how could i forget

"i don't know if i still love you, but i do know that i don't need you anymore"

i walked away, reluctantly

will i ever see that face again?

but i must be strong, i must be

i don't want to be hurt again,

let alone to hurt him.

i wish he can find somebody who can truly love him, not to hurt him and give him a true happiness

forgive me, i failed to do so

forgive me, for breaking my promise to not leave you

forgive me, please, for everything

  

Love,

Ayu Othman