i was like that, but never again. i still remember how i once wanted to change myself to actually be accepted by this one guy. i know exactly his type, and i was nothing like he wanted at all. i tried to speak softer, be more silent, very careful with my words and whatnot. i spoke in high pitch voice, laughed in a feminine way (or whatever you called). yes, i tried hard to be a lady-like. on the contrary to what i really am, i'm harsh, i'm abit boyish, i laugh like a donkey, i am sometimes can too awkward/strange, and i sound like a batman. i dont own that high pitch voice. lol.